Right . . . so I did. I remember the whole thing. A dream like that isn't easy to forget. Back then, things between them seemed complicated, but I knew there was love there. I didn't realize, er . . . you know.
...But he still brought their sister for a secret visit, and suggested to her that Wei Wuxian should give her son his courtesy name.
[god. could it be that all of this is really stupid? that politics and family shit are fraught and terrible? social species have it so rough. he's beginning to understand both more and less about the brothers.]
[he turns this over, and leans back against Lan Wangji even though he's not being held. then he sighs lightly]
I think I've known you pretty well for a while now, but with all of this drama, I think I understand you even better . . . him too. I didn't know him, but I'm starting to! All of these makes some things pretty clear about why you'll never see eye to eye. Hey . . . do you remember telling me once that you thought I'd be better off with some understanding of duty? The kind I've never really had to have, with the life I've led.
[he puts a hand on Magolor's head again. he is kind of mad and hurt and confused right now, but in the end Magolor always tries to understand him, and he is a very good friend :(]
I still can't say I understand it much...maybe a little better than before. I do feel I have a duty to this world! But I chose that out of love. It wasn't given to me or anything like that. I can't imagine what that's like.
[he reaches up to touch that hand, lingering there, very gently.]
Anyway, I'd say you understand duty well enough to know how to balance it with the rest of your life. That's my impression of you. It's definitely not my impression of him.
[frankly he does not have a lot of experience of things getting better with time, except here! he accepts the hug and puts an arm back up around him, though. he is not going to shut Magolor out just because he's sad and angry.]
[fortunately for them, here is where they are, for now. whether or not things get better naturally over time in their own world, here is where they are, and here has its ways.]
Not that I think you're on the road to becoming besties. But if nothing else, it's impossible to avoid things here, which usually turns out for the better, as much as I hate that.
[HE DOES NOT USUALLY THINK OF HIMSELF AS A MAN IMPATIENT WITH NECESSARY EVILS! but thirteen years is a long time to learn to reconcile yourself to them.]
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Your dream. Meeting Jiang Wanyin's memory.
Do you recall the circumstances?
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Jiang Wanyin and Jiang Yanli met with Wei Wuxian. She wore her wedding attire. He could not be invited.
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[everything. everything after.]
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[god. could it be that all of this is really stupid? that politics and family shit are fraught and terrible? social species have it so rough. he's beginning to understand both more and less about the brothers.]
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When he served their goals, he was lauded.
When he threatened their authority, he was feared.
Jiang Wanyin followed this. No loyalty repaid.
Some would call it wise.
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I think I've known you pretty well for a while now, but with all of this drama, I think I understand you even better . . . him too. I didn't know him, but I'm starting to! All of these makes some things pretty clear about why you'll never see eye to eye. Hey . . . do you remember telling me once that you thought I'd be better off with some understanding of duty? The kind I've never really had to have, with the life I've led.
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Mm.
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[he reaches up to touch that hand, lingering there, very gently.]
Anyway, I'd say you understand duty well enough to know how to balance it with the rest of your life. That's my impression of you. It's definitely not my impression of him.
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Not so different. Was born to my Sect and clan. But I want it.
Reasons are not excuses.
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Did not think it.
[paffs at his head gently :(]
The years have been long. For all.
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[he lifts up to turn and give Lan Wangji a hug. huff!!]
You're too kind even when I've disappointed you. But this is all pretty nasty all around . . . I do think it'll get better.
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[frankly he does not have a lot of experience of things getting better with time, except here! he accepts the hug and puts an arm back up around him, though. he is not going to shut Magolor out just because he's sad and angry.]
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[fortunately for them, here is where they are, for now. whether or not things get better naturally over time in their own world, here is where they are, and here has its ways.]
Not that I think you're on the road to becoming besties. But if nothing else, it's impossible to avoid things here, which usually turns out for the better, as much as I hate that.
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Avoidance may be best for harmony.
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How long, since my arrival?
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[He does some quick mental math. But it's probably saying something that it's not hard mental math, and he can access it very quickly.]
Seventy days, ish.
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Perhaps four months ago.
Time is strange, here. But nonetheless.
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I see...so it's still that raw. I didn't realize just how recently you'd come off of everything that happened.
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Thirteen years difference. Thus.
[HE DOES NOT USUALLY THINK OF HIMSELF AS A MAN IMPATIENT WITH NECESSARY EVILS! but thirteen years is a long time to learn to reconcile yourself to them.]
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[he pats Lan Wangji's hand, warmly.]
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You have marked it?
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