SIDEREAL CONTINUATIONS.

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This used to be an IC inbox (now found here) but it ended up mostly NSFW thread continuations instead and I decided I wanted those separate so!

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😒

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I like presents! Who doesn't?

Besides, of course I want to make you something again. I promise no ducks!

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[there's no immediate reply

Magolor MIGHT or might not notice that in the intervening time the first several comments of this mess have played themselves out]

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[OF COURSE HE DOES, he always reads all of these posts, especially the threads where he can tell who the anon is or the ones he's involved in. Both are true in this case.]

But my real gift to you is not jumping into your conversation there.

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[okay yeah that gets a response after a minute]

Do not.

[SOMEBODY'S UNHAPPY]

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I wouldn't really! But I won't say I wasn't tempted.

You all right over there?

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[another pause]

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I see.

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It is how he feels.

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Yes and no. People do say different things when they're anonymous than they would normally. Sometimes that means being more honest, but sometimes it's the opposite. I'm lying to at least two people in there right now. Not even for any bad reason!

Anyway.

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Anyway?

[begguiling]

Anyway... how're you feeling?

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Hard to say.
I had assumed incorrectly.

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About what?

Are you with him right now? You could come over or something. If you wanted!

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Am not, but poor timing.

[after a while]

Had thought he had other reasons. And did not believe me resentful.

[begguiling]

I hope you aren't taking it personally. I can tell you that when people think things like that, it's not always about you or anything you've done.

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[he's taking it personally]

How not? He spoke of me.

[begguiling]

Of course. But the way people see us isn't exactly how we are. It's about how they are too! If he believes you might resent him, it doesn't necessarily mean you're acting like you resent him. It might just mean he believes he deserves to be resented. And you're a smart, wonderful person he respects, so of course he'll believe you'd do what he thinks is the right thing to do. Even if that's resenting him.

If you're wondering how I know, this one is me!

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I see.

[begguiling]

Good. He's that type of person, too. "I haven't done anything to deserve this!" That isn't really about us.

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I did not consider.

[begguiling]

You're worried about not being good enough for him yourself, right?

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[NO RESPONSE]

[begguiling]

That's not unexpected.

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Why do you say so?